Bored to thought

I keep wanting meditation to be more. It's not, though. Continually catching myself asking questions about the details, trying to find the one trick I'm still missing. What if I had better posture? What if I reflected more, or better, or less? What if I reread the instructions before each session? What if I, what if I, what if I...

I've asked all of those things and more. I'm noticing the pattern a little bit now. The thoughts keep coming. What if, what if, what if...

Days since last post on boredom: 16? Not bad...