I could write: "I have a habit of hanging back, lurking, not engaging interactively with things but just passively reading, watching, et cetera." I could write that, but it feels a bit untrue? I could justify this as describing a frequency in the way things used to be.
I sometimes find a thought arising that is silly, recognizing that it is silly on some level, and then proceeding as if it were serious. Frequently it starts with "oh, that thing that I did, what if someone reacts to it badly?" What if, that's how
Yesterday I had tunnel vision. Today I feel scattered. I feel like three dozen little embers of attention singeing various threads. There's a thread of "all that backprop network stuff going on out there," with a constant refrain of "and isn't this insane?
If tunnel vision made a sound, it would sound like this. In unrelated news: I have been playing a lot of Vampire Survivors. When I'm not playing, about half the time I'm thinking about playing. I'm thinking about what I'm going to
is a fun phrase, because it implies there is some right level of thinking which is more than zero this is not true for every thing you can think about (i should know)