Specify and care about inputs

I want to show up more confidently. I want to talk to the people that I want to talk to. To do that I've got to talk to them. I frequently don't intend to do what I want to do because I might do it and

What's the problem with "personal" gain?

When we talk about a person acting for reason of their "personal" gain, it basically always implies that they are doing something bad and wrong. This is fucked up. There's nothing wrong with acting for one's personal gain. Just ask Ayn Rand! But there

Felt scarcity of opportunity makes bad moods worse

I've noticed my mood follows a sine wave of doom with my predicted dating prospects and that this isn't ideal. One particular way in which it is not ideal is that the sine wave makes my dating prospects worse* when I'm in the negative

My mood follows my predicted dating prospects in a sine wave of doom

I want to find love. I want to go on dates and find out what that's like. And I notice my mood on any given day depends heavily on how I feel about my prospects — which feeling rises and dips over time, leading to a "sinusoidal"

Comfort and nightmare shade into each other

Comfort and nightmare as frames share the conceit that there is something that needs to be comforted or can be tortured. Why does this matter to me? I forget. Why did I think of this? I was thinking about when I'm wound up in a self-torturing "egoistic&